I totally understand where you’re coming from. Perhaps see if your school has a GSA? If they don’t maybe you can try and start one? If not, There’s always people you can network through! C: Such as people on this blog. :D Also there might be some out gays that you just haven’t found out about yet. I didn’t find half of my gay friends til my 10th grade year. c: There are plenty of us around, you just have to know where to look and who to ask. c:
((Sorry this was so long and I hope I helped. And other followers, please feel free to answer too!))